~my confession~

I have missed this site, this little diary. Many things I wanna share, include the ups and downs I've been trough since my latest post. But Snapchat and Instagram make it simpler for me to immediately share it at the moment.

Anyway, college life is amazing. I'm so grateful to be able passed this semester! I met so many people with different personalities. It makes me have to adjust my self. Behave, Emma! I have to act wisely, manage every single word I said with full of responsibilty in the scientific forum or organization meeting. But sometimes, I still act like a childish kid, careless, forget like next year my age would be 20! I got many advices from people around me for my better life in future :'' They also taught me many soft skills we don't learn in the class. That fact makes me understand, that the real life after I graduated will be so much harder.

In my previous post, I tell you several of my hectic activities in the 4th semester; First is the practicum and the practicum report which had been spent a haf of my 24 hour everday. I know this is very important for my grade point. Alhamdulillah the result is better than the previous semester. The second is microbiology lab assistant. Alhamdulillah this job has done and we're waiting for the salary :D. The third is English Course. Yeah, I have done my english course until the highest level in the intermediet part. After this I will take the conversation class. I just can't believe that have passed them. Alhamdulillah.

Andd the last but not least, the fourth is PKM FTP CERIA :D

:D
Alhamdulillah. Our project has won the gold medal for presentation! Everytime I remember this moment, I remember how hard this team blend each other in the first meeting, then we got some obstacles from our lectures, technicians, and from ourself too (especially me :( *sad). Altough it's difficult at first, alhamdulillah, Allah always heard our prayer and answered it in the right time after we give the best we can did. :)

I'm so grateful. I believe the Quran says, "We impose on no self any more than it can bear" (Al A'raf: 42). Alhamdulillah. Thank you, Allah. You give me strength and your mercy to get through all of ups and downs until today. Alhamdulillahirobbilalamiin.

Now, what? When I got my "me time" in my room, sometimes I feel worry about myself in the next 2 until 5 year. What am I going to be? What will I do to make my parents proud of me? I wonder if all I did was bring me to my true destination.

So, I start it with Bismillahirrohmanirrohiim. Let's make another life goals which will bring us to the true destination :) And I will do the best for the next semester!

Welcome September! Welcome 5th Semester!

In The Middle of Mid-Test Week Post

Helloo everybody!

Finally I have time for my side pleasure, blogging! Feel so glad to know that I'm still survive until now :'. Yeah, welcome April! I just realized my last post was on February and there's no post on March. Maybe some of you wonder what I have been doing lately after my last post which is really hectic month for me. And I want to make some review of my latest activities since my last post on February. Check this out!!

1. Practicum and The Practicum Report

Yeah, the real 4th semester has just begun. I have to handle Food Processing Technology practicum and Biochemistry & Food Analysis practicum. FYI, practicum is fun and I really enjoy it, but not for the report we have to submit after the practicum. 

There are several reasons why I hate the practicum report. Most of them because it's tiring! Yeah, the report is not only contain the practicum results data, it also contains the procedure which has to be very detail from the preparation until result plus the equipment functions and the treatment functions. For  example, you have to explain in the procedure why you have to put the petri dish into oven for 1 hour. Why not 30 minutes? Yeah, you have to explain the treatment function. So tiring, isn't it? You also have many questions to answer based on the literature. There's also discuss the data section which you have to discuss. Usually not only our grup's data, but also from the other group. Can you imagine that? We have to discuss about data which we haven't done and compare it with the literatures. That's why usually the practicum report for one material is really thick. Really tiring, right?

2. Microbiology Lab Assistant

As I wrote before on my last post, I accepted as Microbiology Lab Assistant. I'm so grateful and proud of this chance. I learn so much from this job. Most of my free time I spent in the Microbiology Lab which lack of connection :(. After class usually I was scheduled to be a lab assistant. I enjoy it because I can spent my free time for useful things and earn too teehee

3. English Course

Actually this is really fun thing which makes me can release the stress from my activities. I also can improve my English, meet new friends, have discussion in English with people in different background. Everything is fun and relaxing. But, sometimes, my course schedule crashed with the replacement schedule from my lecture which makes me should choose the replacement class from the lecture and miss one meeting in the course :(. I want to change my course schedule so I can get both of them but now this kind condition has taught me the meaning of "Life is a Choice" :)

4. PKM FTP CERIA

This is the name of my PKM group on LINE. PKM a.k.a. Program Kreativitas Mahasiswa. It is really prestige competition in my faculty because if we're invited to PIMNAS (the final of PKM) we will be free from the thesis. So, in the middle of bustles above, I have to do this state madate. Like I wrote before on my last post, my PKM has funded by DIKTI alhamdulillah. We get 7 million actually but still 3 million we got. We have to maintain this 3 million so it won't deficit. Later I will tell you about the my PKM. Hopefully our team can solve the obstacles in front of us so we realize the proposal, invited to PIMNAS, and the main goal reached. Aamiin. 

Well I learn so much from those activities. It makes me read more books, curious more, and trying to push myself more. There's a quote that really affects me: If you fail to plan, you will plan to fail. So, I make list of my goals and achievements I have to get with details how to realize them. I hope everything is going well include my mid semester test too. Yeah, the whole activities above are postponed for a while in the middle semester test week. So, I have to focus now in my mid-semester test and hopefully the result will be perfectly "A" . Aamiin :))  

Anyway, that's all the activities I have been doing lately until now. I hope you enjoy my kind of diary post. See you!

Bertemu Dosen Pembimbing Akademik

Assalamualaikum, selamat malam.

Papa. Waktu muda.

Jujur, sebenarnya sangat ingin menghindarkan blog ini dari curhatan aneh yang isinya ngomongin orang terus ngga ada manfaatnya. Entah ini termasuk postingan yang seperti itu atau justru malah bisa mengambil hikmahnya. Ya, ini adalah kejadian yang masih anget banget baru tadi abis Isya'. Dan setelah mengalami kejadian ini salah satu perasaan yang terbersit disamping marah, malu, kesal, terharu... adalah HARUS DI TULIS DI BLOG.

Yeah. I did.

Hari ini rasanya panjang banget. Dari sekian banyak agenda yang aku tuliskan khusus untuk hari ini, salah satunya adalah meminta tanda tangan dosen pembimbing akademik yang biasa dipanggil Papa sama mahasiswanya. Ya, untuk menjaga privasinya, sebut saja Papa.

Kuliah Semester 1, 2, 3, 4.........

Kuliah.

Entah mengapa ketika mengetik 6 huruf pertama di postingan ini selalu diiringi dengan hembusan nafas panjang dan raut wajah menjadi sendu. Tampaknya sudah cukup mewakili resah dan gundah mahasiswa ya, "Kapan lulus, sih?"

"Kapan lulus, sih?"

"Kapan?"

"Kapaan?"

"Aaaaaaargh!"

Bahkan pertanyaan retoris itu akan semakin sering berputar - putar di otak kita terutama ketika peralihan semester. Ya, lebih tepatnya menjelang pengumuman IP semester. Entah mengapa perasaan jadi lebih campur aduk dari biasanya. Rasanya langsung pingin jadi anak soleh solehah biar ada keajaiban IPnya agak bagusan dikit gitu ya.

Nggak peduli semester berapa pun, tiap menjelang detik - detik  keluarnya IP, meme ini jadi sangat populer:

selamat! selamat! selamat!

Nggak muna, ini juga yang sedang saya rasakan haha. Kompleks banget lah urusan kuliah ini. Benar - benar mampu bikin frustasi, ya. Ada beberapa faktor dan hal privasi yang mungkin nanti akan dibikin postingan khusus, ya, nggak muat kalo dijelasin disini. 

Memang paling deg - deg kalo nunggu IP keluar. Banyak orang bilang, IP bukan segalanya, kok. Tapi ribuan oang yang lain (terutama orang tua, sih) juga tetap pada pendiriannya, IP itu penting, nduk, le! Nah, kemunculan IP di web akademik makasiswa biasanya berbarengan dengan ribuan motivasi - motivasi bijak, baik itu dari diri kita sendiri atau dari lingkungan.

"Okay, semester depan harus lebih baik lagi!"

"Semangat, semester depan yang niat yaa!"

"Ayo fokus semester depan!"

Blah, blah, blah.

Curhat dikit ya, jadi sebentar lagi kan mau semester 4. Alhamdulillah Allah baik banget masih menyelamatkan IP ku dari hal - hal yang tidak diingingkan (?). Akhirnya semseter 4! Setelah melihat daftar mata kuliahnya, kayaknya semester 4 bakal rock n roll. Banget. For the first time ini forever I will take 24 SKS bismillah! There are 9 main subjects and 2 practicum which means I have to be focus. That's the point. My parents also suggest me to not register as a lab assistant, so I can focus increasing my IPK and get the scholarship. Galau banget kan jadinya. Oke, semakin kesini harus berusaha makin bijak untuk memutuskan sendiri. Hmm bismillah. Ini semua demi masa depan yang lebih baik. Anak  baik itu anak yang nurut sama nasihat  orang tua ya nggak. Hahahha apasih.

Ayo yang kuliah semangat semua! Semester baru udah di depan mata! Semangat meski udah lelah denger kata semangat!