COMMUNICATION

Actually, I am bad at communication.

“The biggest problem for humanity, not only on a global level, but even for individuals, is misunderstanding.” ~Rinpoche

College life has taught me how to communicate with different persons every single day. Sometimes there are some of them who are the ambitious type having conversation to reply only or just to show their existence. I can't blame it because it depends on their personality traits. Some of them who are the calm type just give less verbal communication because they said to me it's hard to express their emotion or feelings. The worst is people who are trying to make missunderstanding when speak.

People said I am a fussy or maybe talkative person. Fussy person is used to related with good communiation skill.  I just smiled because they don't know what inside me is. It was just another side of mine. It's like I can switch my personality either to be fussy or very quite. Yeah, when I surrounded by talkative people, usually I become quite and be a listener because I am afraid of misunderstanding. But, when I am in my inner circles or hang out with quite people I can be very fussy and don't care people will be get it wrong or offended by my words..

I believe we born to be good persons. There is no person who is planned to be bad since he born in a state of purity. I can easily know weather someone try to make a sentence looked bias and caused misunderstanding but I usually keep quite because I don't want to be dominant that may ruin the relationship. Actually it is a bad habit; keep quite means you  agree to make it bias that will caused problems in future. See? I told you I have bad communication because I want to "please" everyone around me altough I know it is going to be difficult.

I don't want to blame people who loves to give bias information because I don't have any rights to judge people so I will corrected myself first. There are some tips originally made by me about how to comunicate well with people.

1. Think before Speak
          It is very useful to reduce the probability of missunderstanding when communicate with people. It will make words from your mouth arranged.
2. Ask!
          When you don't really understand, just ask like kids ask their parents why bird can fly. As simple as that.
3. Repeat the Statement
          Repeate means make sure that you and your partner have same perception about the information.
4. Get to Know
          Sometimes, misunderstanding is not only caused by bad communication but also different style of speaking. You should get to know each other especially about their background or how they usually mention something that is not really common for you. Yeah, maybe it will strange at first, but you will get used after that.

Okayy that's all my post about communication. I wrote this based on my restlessness because people nowadays always connected with social media that can trigger misunderstandings. I hope this could be useful for you that have same problem with me.

Good night!

Mixed Feelings

Last weekend I just watched a very inspiring movie, Into The Wild. The story was about Alex, a young man who left his normal life -family and collage- looking for a truly happiness, I guess. I watched it on the Fox Movies channel while the movie already playing about an hour anyway. There is a plot of this story back to the past. He used to called Chris when his parents had a big fight in the house. I thought he just can't resist that kind of condition so he decided to escape. He left his home and there's a part he said he'll go to Alaska. Sounds crazy, right?

With full of curiousity, I kept watching this movie.

Alex -or maybe Chris in the past- met many people on the way he went to Alaska. He wrote his journey in a book. He met a guy who love to read a book and gave him some books about live in the wild. He also met an old man who never want to explore the world more because of personal excuse. Many people want to help him to go to Alaska but Alex prefer to took a job so he can save some money for his journey. He was so independent and smart so unwittingly had inspiring many people he met.

The climax of the story was when Alex really trapped in the wild on the way he went to Alaska. No animals to be hunted, ate the wrong plants in the forest, starving, and money was not worth at all. At first he thought he could handle it, but he's not that strong. In the weakest condition, he kept wrote his note in the book. Suddenly, the plot back to the past again. Yeah, Alex remembered some happy memories about his family, friends, and many people he met. He smiled, but tears fell down to his cheeks too. I wonder if he just regret about his decision to left home that made him trapped in the wild or it's a tears of joy that he finally know about a trupy happiness although he hadn't reach Alaska. The last scene of this movie had aswered my curiousity when in the weakest condition, he tried to write the last sentence before he left this world forever, 

"Happiness only real when shared."

Mixed feelings.

The fact, it is a true story and there was a real Alex! The story was addapted from his note when he found  died in the wild. I was stared at the TV although it already showed the credit title. Seriously, it's such a big regret if I were Alex :( Why a smart and independent young man who had inspiring many people had to left this world alone in the wild? :( It's a very sad ending although finally he found the meaning of a truly happiness.

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Sorry I really took it personal, imagine if I were Alex or some people who had inspired by him.

But the last quote from Alex really blow my mind. So I posted it in my social media LOL.

So much blow my mindddd. 

~my confession~

I have missed this site, this little diary. Many things I wanna share, include the ups and downs I've been trough since my latest post. But Snapchat and Instagram make it simpler for me to immediately share it at the moment.

Anyway, college life is amazing. I'm so grateful to be able passed this semester! I met so many people with different personalities. It makes me have to adjust my self. Behave, Emma! I have to act wisely, manage every single word I said with full of responsibilty in the scientific forum or organization meeting. But sometimes, I still act like a childish kid, careless, forget like next year my age would be 20! I got many advices from people around me for my better life in future :'' They also taught me many soft skills we don't learn in the class. That fact makes me understand, that the real life after I graduated will be so much harder.

In my previous post, I tell you several of my hectic activities in the 4th semester; First is the practicum and the practicum report which had been spent a haf of my 24 hour everday. I know this is very important for my grade point. Alhamdulillah the result is better than the previous semester. The second is microbiology lab assistant. Alhamdulillah this job has done and we're waiting for the salary :D. The third is English Course. Yeah, I have done my english course until the highest level in the intermediet part. After this I will take the conversation class. I just can't believe that have passed them. Alhamdulillah.

Andd the last but not least, the fourth is PKM FTP CERIA :D

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Alhamdulillah. Our project has won the gold medal for presentation! Everytime I remember this moment, I remember how hard this team blend each other in the first meeting, then we got some obstacles from our lectures, technicians, and from ourself too (especially me :( *sad). Altough it's difficult at first, alhamdulillah, Allah always heard our prayer and answered it in the right time after we give the best we can did. :)

I'm so grateful. I believe the Quran says, "We impose on no self any more than it can bear" (Al A'raf: 42). Alhamdulillah. Thank you, Allah. You give me strength and your mercy to get through all of ups and downs until today. Alhamdulillahirobbilalamiin.

Now, what? When I got my "me time" in my room, sometimes I feel worry about myself in the next 2 until 5 year. What am I going to be? What will I do to make my parents proud of me? I wonder if all I did was bring me to my true destination.

So, I start it with Bismillahirrohmanirrohiim. Let's make another life goals which will bring us to the true destination :) And I will do the best for the next semester!

Welcome September! Welcome 5th Semester!